Never Could I Tell

Father, thank you for the sunshine on the snow. Thank you for little boys learning to speak words. Thank you for husbands who brave the cold to warm your car. Thank you for encouraging friends—who love you period. Thank you for dogs warming in the sun. Thank you for the turning of book pages. Thank you for your word…and how it is alive. Thank you that you did not limit prayer to place or time—simply when we breathe your name.

Father, there are moments when I get so full. The insides of me feel as if they have no room to expand because of all you have poured into them, and yet expand them you do. So full that I feel as if I will need to have vent holes in order to allow some of the precious steam to move out or I will burst. That’s how I feel. And I know feelings are arbitrary. But the source of the reality of this feeling does not change. You and your generosity do not change.

Father, never. Never could I say enough about you. Never could I tell others enough about what you have done in the dark parts of me. Never could I tell fully how you came and hand fed the emaciated Tamera until she revived. Never could I fully tell how you came and gave the dehydrated Tamera living water. Never could I explain reading your word and my heart growing far too large for my chest cavity and my eyes blurring with tears because your word spoke to the hardest, neediest parts of me. Never could I tell of the laughter you caused to bubble up in my soul like a fountain. 

Never could I fully tell them, but Father, I will try.

I will try.

Help me. Give the words. Give me the insight. Give me the intuition. Give me a greater measure of faith. Give me more of your Holy Spirit. I do not ask because I have a greedy sense of gimme. I just want so much for people to know there’s so much more than they know. You are far more than all we have imagined, or been told or taught. You are far more than tradition allows and you are far greater than the best stories.

I just want people to know.

Enable me to tell your story in my story so that people might know you.

Infuse me with courage and wisdom to tell your story true.

Amen and amen.